To be or not to be... that is the question.

So I have the most wonderful children in the world. There is my step-son Cade who is so sensitive and sweet and there is Emma who is just filled with such a fun loving spirit. I have always wanted kids. I would even say my biggest fear in life was that I would never be able to have children. But it turned out okay and I have two wonderful children in my life. I got pregnant once before Emma, but I miscarried early in the pregnancy. I still have a hard time when I think about it, but I am extremely blessed with the kids that I have and I thank God for them everyday. Now that Cade and Emma are getting older my security perimeter for them is even stronger. I think about how the world is. Sometimes I feel so guilty bringing Emma into a world like this. But that is what we are supposed to do right? "As for you, be fruitful and increase in number; multiply on earth and increase upon it". (Genesis 9:7) God said to multiply and be fruitful, but I have a hard time thinking about the struggles I have as an adult today and what struggles Cade and Emma are going to have in years to come. Sometimes I feel selfish for olny thinking of myself when Kevin and I decided to have a baby. What happens when I pass and they are here on this earth dealing with everyday struggles that are getting more difficult by the year? I guess all I can do is pray that God will protect them.