We live in a fallen world

I always thought I had a pretty good relationship with God. I have always believed if you are a decent person and don't commit heinous crimes, you will go to heaven. Now, after attending church and really studying the word of God, I don't believe that so much anymore. You aren't really worshiping God if you pray when things go wrong in your life or if you are generally a nice person. That's not worshiping God. Most people turn to God only when they hit rock bottom. Isn't he more that that? If you really think about it, how often do we take advantage of our God? Is he just a convenience? Do you really worship him? Do you truly have faith in him? I didn't. I still have a hard time trusting God in everything I do. Sometimes I feel it would be easier to be a believer if we could reach God like they used to in biblical times. There are times when I have felt the presence of God right beside me, but I'm sure there are numerous times I just couldn't see him. It's not that God isn't with us, we just choose not to see him. God wants to be close to us, but so many of us just get by. We don't realize when God is right there beside us. We have so many other things in this world tempting us that we can't see him begging for us to turn to him. Someone I know said if we could just get a peek at heaven maybe people would act differently toward God. But I think that heaven is just too much for us to bare. It is so wonderful that we couldn't handle knowing how wonderful it is. Some people think that the way we live is the life. We have it made living in America. So many freedoms we have. If we saw how great heaven was, I believe people would go crazy. People would realize how awful and sinful this world really is. I don't think our minds could grasp the concept. If we truly try to see God and give him all of our faith, we can see him. So many people think they can do things on their own. We can't. We need God to guide us in the right direction. We need him. Our children need him. I would say my kids turned me to God. I didn't have the best relationship with God. I didn't really know him at all. If I did, I would have turned to him a lot more. I wanted my kids to have the opportunity to know him. There were some things that I couldn't explain to them about God. So I took them to church expecting the church to teach them. I ended up finding God myself. Why did I expect the church to teach them their faith? I took it for granted like so many people do. We need to be close to God and have an intimate relationship with him. We understand more about him and his ways when we get to know him. We live in a fallen world not because of God, but because of our own sin. Because we choose to turn away from him.